The moment my world stood still.....

I have never done this before, but once I received the wonderful news, my mom suggested setting up a blog so that my close ones would always know what was going on, even when I didn't have the strength to stay on the phone for hours.  So, I said what the heck, and here goes my first blog ever.  I wish it could start off on a more positive note.  But, just follow along, because I guarantee it will end with fireworks for the finale.

It all started with a small sore on my tongue.  I didn't do anything about it until it started messing with my sleep (and anyone with 2 small kids knows, you do not mess with our sleep or it is war).  I went to my family doctor and the ER about 3 times because it started causing me alot of pain and alot of sleepless nights.  Well, they kept diagnosing me with Thrush and treating me for it.  It wasn't getting any better, but worse.  My last visit to the ER had me seeing a new PA, which many came to me and apologized for the wait because she was new and slower than the rest.  Well, needless to say, I was dealing with having someone new but when she walked in the door, had me say Ahhhh (like they all do) and then gave me the dreaded news. "Honey, you need to go to an ENT immediately because this looks like cancer."  Wow, what a blow.  I went though, immediately, and he did a biopsy right away.  As many of you know, I am not your everyday, typical, mother of two, medically speaking.  One of the first things that came to mind is that, ok maybe it is sarcoid.  That is rare and likes to show up every once and awhile just to let me know it is still there.  Then, there is that dreaded HPV, which I can thank an unfaithful husband for giving me such a parting gift.  So, there we were, me and my family, pondering all the possiblities of what it could be because even though I had this feeling, like when I knew my first was a boy and my second was a girl, that it was cancer.  For once, why couldn't my feelings be wrong???  But I have accepted it now, and now I am ready to fight.  Yes, I am diagnosed with cancer but it doesn not make me who I am, it is just a glitch in my system, one that will just have to be terminated.

I am doing this to keep all my loved ones updated on appointments and my progress.  But, all of you should know, I am a fighter and this is going to be one hell of a fight but I have way too much to live for for something like this to knock me down.  All I ask out of everyone reading this is that you keep me in your prayers.  Yes, money, babysitters, food, etc.... that all helps, of course, but I know that God is the best help I can ever receive and he is always on my side, looking out for me.  I know I am a challenging case, but he also has all my guardian angels helping him out.

I just found out today that my surgery is scheduled for January 4th, 2010.  Right now, I am scheduled to meet with the dentist and radiation people on Thursday the 19th and then see my regular physician on the 24th.  On the 30th, I will be meeting with the people doing the chemo.  So, they are already trying to fill up my calendar.  I will keep everyone updated and the times when I am too weak or just don't feel up to it, my mom will fill in for me.

I want to thank everyone for the kind words of encouragement I have already received and for all the prayers which have been sent out on my behalf.

Love you all and God Bless!!!